Adrift in the Wake of You

Where am I supposed to take all these memories?
You taught me how to fly,
But just as I soared, you let me go.
Now I’m spiraling down,
Bracing for the crash—
Anticipating the rock-bottom fall awaiting me.

I had a chance to say I love you once,
And for a moment, it was everything.
Now, I watch you walk away,
But somehow, that hurts less than loving you.

You are the true love I never truly had.
I was afraid to say the words,
But you urged me— “Admit it, I feel the same way.”
Now, you’re gone for the last time.

I should have never reached out,
Should have never let those words sink into my burning heart.
There was never any gain in this uncertain love.

Letting you go is easier than loving you,
Yet loving you through the pain
Feels easier than letting go.

But then again,
Your ego feeds on my suffering.